This journal entry delves deeply into the complexities of human longing, impermanence, and the search for control in an unpredictable world. It reflects on how longing is intertwined with our vulnerability, fears, and the awareness of mortality. The piece examines how societal avoidance of mortality leads to misguided pursuits of permanence—whether through relationships, possessions, or achievements—and emphasizes that true peace may come from embracing impermanence rather than resisting it. It reflects on the paradox of desiring control while acknowledging the uncontrollable aspects of life, suggesting that peace lies in accepting uncertainty and living authentically, without attachment to specific outcomes.